In my last post I wrote about Loss, in relation to time, age, youth. It’s time to talk about finding acceptance.
I wouldn’t say that I have found acceptance, it’s something I struggle with often, but there are increasing moments, windows of clarity, when I can feel the peace that saying “this is how it is” provides. I know there is nothing that can be done about most of the things that I have lost, especially those things associated with getting older, so being able to find that calm moment is a release, a time to let go of all the unrealistic “wishes” about fabulous ways to turn back time, which only happens in the movies and the science fiction books anyway (oh how I do love science fiction, where you can be young for all your life).
Finding acceptance is not a static thing for me, it can be found, it can be lost, then found again. Always it moves me a little bit closer to a better understanding of how I want to be, how to let go of control over something that is, essentially, uncontrollable, and just float along that river called “De Nile”. Which is a little bit weird, but works for me – “if I don’t focus on it, I can accept that there is nothing I can do about”.
Whatever path you find to acceptance, may it bring peace to you.