Reasons for the Marshmallow Mantra

You know how you have that vision, the one where you are laying back nibbling on chocolate, reading your favourite book or watching your favourite DVD, sipping wine and pretending that you are a real grown up adult, and basking in the glorious peaceful silence, the silence which is golden, of no person needing your attention.

Yeah, you know that one!

Well, I’m here to tell you it’s a soul-shattering sham, a fabricated fantastical fairytale, a complete crock of confabulation.

Maybe, just maybe, you enjoy it for a maximum of five minutes, and then it’s something like this:

why is my house so quiet and empty?
why do I have such a large house anyway?
is this what it will be like when I’m old and by myself?
I don’t want to get old and live by myself, who will I talk to?
I’m allergic to cats so how can I be the crazy, muttering, cat lady when I get old?
Why can’t I stop thinking about the fact that I’m thinking about being old and alone?

Marshmallows, marshmallows, marshmallows

what if something has happened to her?
what if she needs me?
what if she doesn’t need me?

Marshmallows, marshmallows, marshmallows

why is there nothing to eat?
why is my metabolism not working?
why don’t I actually have chocolate and wine?
how many times do you have to eat vegetables anyway?
is it ok to have a peanut butter sandwich for tea again tonight?

Marshmallows, marshmallows, marshmallows

COME HOME, I CAN”T MAKE IT BY MYSELF, I”M ONLY 49!!!

P.S if you’re wondering about the marshmallows, they are what I think about when I don’t want to think about something. Denial/Avoidance works well when I say the word, sometimes if I need extra oomph in a D/A situation I will go further and visualise their fluffy gooiness!
HEY, it works for me!

My day at Work

Today I had to drive 3.5 hours for a meeting, then another half an hour to another, then turn around and drive home.  It was a long day,but I was driving a brand new Subaru Outback, a tester for our new fleet replacement, so that was kinda nice, if worrisome that someone might do damage to it whilst I was driving it.

I left home at 6.45am, in the dark, and it wasn’t until about an hour later that the sun really started to make a difference.  By then I was heading up into the Midlands, and there was still lots and lots of frost on the paddocks, so it was looking quite white.  A couple of times there were beautiful photo opportunities, but they were inthe middle of the highway, so I just had to use my mental camera, and admire the view for myself.

I did manage to get a couple, so here they are:

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This doesn’t look as nice in the picture as it was in reality.  Just back a bit from this place, when I was up on a rise, it looked like an island surrounded by a lake of white clouds.

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It was -2degrees Celsius here, but it was so pretty to see the sun shine through the fog and sparkle the frost.

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Saw this jet trail whilst driving further up the road (thought it might have been aliens invading)

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Then later another.  This one was really long, twice as much more as what is in the picture, and I could also see the remains of two others as well.  By now I am thinking it’s definitely aliens, and will I get home before they land 🙂

I had my 2 meetings, drove home, picked up D1 who has come home for the night to soak in my bath (yay), and now I am drinking a glass of wine and eating Tim Tams and telling you about my day.  – Oh, and no damage to the car, phew.

Soon it will be sleepy byes time, and the weekend tomorrow.  Hope those aliens stay away.